There are so many stages to love. It is definitely not just waking up on Feb 14th and declaring words of love and admiration to your partner, showering with gifts and back rubs and patting yourself on the back that you’re a good partner and that your love is strong.
I am no expert BUT after almost 15 years of marriage (18 together in total) I can say that love is shown when you pick up your socks, put the dishes IN the dishwasher, fill their car up with gas (this is never me), call them for no reason in the middle of the day (this is me) and in all the side looks, burst out laughter and the from- behind- kitchen sink hugs.
When you first start dating, you can’t be a part for long! Dates are hours and hours and of course…so creative! Money is (usually) not a factor here – splurges and splurges. Lots of sweet talk and intimacy. And asking each other important, thought provoking questions like “where do you see you self in 10 years?” (him to me, even 18 years later). I never had a good answer and now I say “still in the kitchen fixing someone’s lunch or folding laundry, I presume.”
Then we move to engagement – still in love and naming your children – or telling him you are naming their son, Julian (and we did) – but also the snide remarks of wedding plans going out the window. Keep looking forward! Marriage is so much easier than planning the wedding!! Ha ha!
And of course we have the honeymoon stage…aww married and still in love. And then you realize they put the toilet paper on the WRONG way, their sink is a mess (me) and why doesn’t he put the cereal bowl IN the dishwasher? (there’s a theme here I know).
Then mix kids in there!! And a baby that would rather be up and in the know of everything around him instead of sleeping! Throw lack of sleep, not enough coffee, incessant talk about poop and napping and a sudden urge to tell your hair dresser to cut your hair so that you can’t put it in a ponytail anymore! Surprise honey!!
And as the kids get older, the sleep does come…but so does the busy schedule of sports, school activities and whatever else they zing at your head. Sometimes you are rushing so much you pass each other on the way in and out of the house for days. Sometimes you have to email each other lists of topics to discuss and sometimes when you finally get out for a date night you end up talking about the kids.
But then finally, even though the kids are still awake and still needing to be in the know about everything and even though you are still rushing to sports and filling the other time with homework, you now find time to sit down together,. You even in silence and listen to the kids laugh, tell you a story, fight, sing annoying You Tube songs that you now can’t get out of your head and you realize every stage was perfect. But no stage was easy. Sometimes you wondered how you would make it through and sometimes you were fearful you wouldn’t. But somehow, the toilet paper roll doesn’t bug you, the messy sink is just a part of who she is and the laughter is still there.
Love is not in the chocolate. It’s not in the fancy dinners. It’s scraping off the ice from his car at 5:30am, it’s making sure she has towels before she goes into the shower – it’s the minutes and the moments.
So glad I have had so many moments with you. Can’t wait for many more – xo
(Side note, yes, I realize not everyone will or wants to get married or have kids…this is just one type of love story.)